It's when I realized....
Human Being, Living Creature, Heart Warrior, M.E.-Mother Earth- M.E.
(it is believed in some cultures that to say "I am..." is a violent form of communication)
I am a...
(inherently in declaring that you are one thing, you exclude the possibility of others, you separate yourself from others and from other parts of yourself.)
I am a heart warrior.
(I am, anything, everything and nothing. I am dedicated. I do. I will. I accept. Life proposed and I said, finally after sifting through much fear, 'Yes.')
My mother passed this duty on to me.
("Don't categorize. Be careful about generalizations. When you use them too easily you begin to go blind. You are, only what you do. What will you do?")
She re-lit a torch and I am to carry it brighter, stronger, so that not only does it light the way of the present and the future, but of the past as well.
("Do what you feel must be done. Do not run from your tears. Let them flow and the thoughts and feelings they uncover, inform you.")
The torch, you see, was nearly extinguished five generations back. Nearly, I say, because it remained, smoldering deep beneath the surface of my great and great and great grandmothers' hearts. And somehow, in my mother's time, it was given enough oxygen to take the form of flame again. And now, through me it grows more fiercely. And I've humbly requested permission from my mother to grow it. To declare it. That the fire of the Heart Warrior will be kept alive. And she, silently with a great surge of power pulsing from her heart and a beautiful pool of water gently swirling in her eyes, declared, "yes. absolutely. though I'm not certain how and you must find the way yourself. finally and thank you."
My mother is my heart. When I grow my love for her, I grow my love for myself and that love grows such deep roots that it connects me to the heart of The Mother. Earth Mother. And I am compelled to protect her. To live by her.
I am a heart warrior because I do what I must to keep my heart connected to Hers. I am a heart warrior because I will not sever my connection to what I feel deep down, and I will not sever my connection to what we are all feeling deep down, because I know that what we each feel deep down, She feels most deeply. And it is my job to respect Her feelings, to allow them to flow - to allow the rivers to flow. To dissolve the dams and free the rivers so that they may all flow
into the sea
ALL of it is M.E. - Mother Earth - It's about more than just me.
And so... I dedicate...
I am on a journey to the Heart Warrior - my own and yours.
As a living creature, heart warrior, child of Grandmother Earth and Grandfather Sky, human being, performance artist, friend, lover, teacher, student, and soon to be documentary filmmaker, I challenge myself to journey into the heart of the matter, to ask questions directly of the heart, to explore my story, our story - I wonder why we still choose war - and then Howard Zinn's statement, "You can't be neutral on a moving train." comes to mind, and I wonder why we don't take good care of the men and women and their families - members of our village -who fight those wars for us. I request that I, that WE, the people, grow stronger - realize, in practice, that we all are not so different, turn and face those returning from war, embrace them -as they are ourselves- and offer them some respite, a retreat, a safe place and an invitation to lighten their load. I wonder what it will take for our heart warrior selves, for your heart warrior self, for my heart warrior self, to lead the way. And how we, the people, you and me, will create a village that is stronger than war.
I have some ideas.
I'd like to hear yours.
What is the story you want to tell about LOVE? about LIFE?
about WAR? about PEACE? about VILLAGE?
Do you feel your Heart Warrior Self?
Please, feel it, dedicate to it, write or sing or draw or dance it and share it - live it, and together, WE The people, will grow and fortify the village.
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